On the eve of a birthday
HOw can a baby who doesn't go to bed until midnight still get up at 7:30 and be all bright and cheery?? Shit! I'm exhausted. It takes me three cups of coffee just to feel "normal". Carl reminded me of a study that said it takes only one cup of coffee ... that you don't get any benefit from the additional cups of coffee. But I think I need the psychological comfort they bring. I just "think" I'm getting more of a boost so therefore I am! heh
Aubrey is going to a concert tonight with her aunt (her dad's sister). Their going to see Rascal Flatts. I hope she has fun. She's still quite uncomfortable around the ex's family. And not only that but the cousin who tried to molest her when she was 9 is going with his girlfriend. Every time Is ee that kid I want to puch his lights out. I say "tried" to molest her. He touched her very inappropriately and offered her money so she would let him do it. thank God she had enough sense to run right to her Mimi and her aunt and tell them what happened. The aunt begged me not to tell Aubrey's dad. To this day I don't know he found out about it. It's one reason I still feel weird toward the family. The fact that Mimi almost died has really weirded things up as well. The amount of guilt that haunts my life is eriely amazing sometimes. LOL
I can't believe it's Friday already. Tomorrow is Aubrey's birthday. It's hard to believe that she's going to be twelve. The Canadian remembered her birthday too. He left me a message on IM about it. I haven't heard from him for a long time. It was a bit of a relief (as I'm a worrier) but at the same time, I thought "how typical." I get to the point where i DON'T think about him and I get a message bringing it all to the forefront. But this time it wasn't as painful. Having this sweet baby girl in my arms I know that he could never have given me this life. He could never have supported me, my goals, my dreams the way Carl has. C is an amazing man and I'm so luck to have him.
Happy Pre Birthday to Aubrey
Hope she has fun at the concert tonight
Posted by: Kat | July 27, 2007 at 09:57 AM
Yay! Happy Pre-Birthday Aubrey! s x
Posted by: Stepfie | July 27, 2007 at 11:15 AM
Yeah I'd want to punch his lights out too. Thank GOD she told someone.
Posted by: bettyalready | July 28, 2007 at 08:28 PM
I prefer Diet Rock Satr energy drinks to coffee. No stained teeth, no coffee breath, no added calories. JUST THE VERY NEEDED CAFFEINE BLAST!
Posted by: boxx | July 29, 2007 at 06:36 PM