They grow up so fast
Have you ever felt sometimes that your children (for those of you that have any) could not possibly belong to you? I'm not talking about those times when they have done something horrible and you wonder where you went wrong. I'm talking about the times when you are struck with the wonder of how absolutely beautiful and precious they are. I stare into my kids' eyes and wonder how the hell something so beautiful could have ever come from me.
And Aubrey is making her slip into being a teenager. She's becoming more withdrawn and estranged. We try to engage her and as much as I know it's a natural part of her "change" I still feel weird about it all. Sometimes it's like I don't know who she is and I don't feel like her "mom" anymore. It's a really strange feeling to see her growing up and becoming more independent. And along with the sleep deprivation, it's really got me all emotional. I know it's silly and it's natural. I will get over it.
Julia is in her bouncy thing watching Nemo. She loves it and she's bouncing like crazy. She loves all the colors of Nemo and laughs when exciting things happen. She has really gotten a lot more active in the last week or so and is so much fun to sit and play with. She is still saying "hey" and "Hi" and still has a really big temper. I don't suppose I should expect that to change. LOL
Other than that, not much is going on here. I'm enjoying not being in school, not having to work, etc. I did finish my financial reports for Girl Scouts and now I have to start planning for the new year. I still haven't found a place to have the meetings. I guess I can have them here until we find somewhere else.
Well, I'd better scoot.
Even when I was out till all hours of the night and doing all kinds of shit I shouldn't have been doin I still had the strongest ties to my parents. My mother especially. And fuck, I only did all that shit cos I was slightly more dumb than I am now, heh. Aubrey will know you and C are there forever. As she becomes a teen I guess she won't always appreciate it, but the need for you and Carl and the openness she once shared with you will return as quickly as it came and you will wonder if it was ever gone in the first place. Smashxxx
Posted by: Smash | July 17, 2007 at 05:48 PM
Nah, I'd be a shite parent, heh. But thank you :-) Smashxxx
Posted by: Smash | July 17, 2007 at 06:59 PM