Love, Kelly

September 11, 2007

Dear Doug,

Today always reminds me of you and what we had, but it also makes me think that it was the beginning of the end.  Because of 9/11 we suddenly had restricted access to each other.  You couldn't come here and I couldn't go there to see you.  I felt scared and helpless and like a child.  It was hard to believe that something could ever come between us in such a way.  Something that told us we couldn't even visit one another.

I dreamed of you last night.  I had a dream of happier times.  As other have their Paris, I will always have my Niagara Falls.  My life is happy now and I live without regret.  But 9/11 surely was the day that changed my life forever.  Because of the attack I was told I couldn't see you... and that was for many months.  Because of the attack the economy slowed.  I lost my job.  I lost my home.  I lost a lot of things.  Thankfully I found many things as well.  Or I should say that those things found me.  I was in despair and my heart and spirit were broken.  I thank God every day for Carl.  But that doesn't mean that I don't miss you.

Love,

Kelly