Kellbell Squarepants

Birds of a feather sleep together...

I took this quiz because of Smash... and it appears we are birds of a feather!  hehe

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No Lunch With Pastor

C did not have lunch with the pastor, and I have to reiterate that he would never go off and say things to the pastor without telling me first, it was just my insecure babble talking.  I am highly stressed this semester and I'm wondering what the hell I've gotten myself into.  I have a ton of paperwork to do, yet here I sit worrying instead of taking action.  This is not typical for me, and that is what is leading to the paranoia and stress.  I really need to go practice some deep breathing and relaxation and then get back to hitting the books and knocking out these papers.  I know I can do this, I know I WILL do it, it's just getting through it all that is such a pain in the ass!  Thanks for all your kind words and comments of support and lovey-ness.  xoxo

Idiot

So, I got a big fat zero on an assignment because I submitted the wrong document electronicallly.  :-(  It's only 10 points, but that means I have to work that much harder to ensure my A.  I would really like to get all A's again this semester and I won't do it by fucking up submissions.  I feel so stupid.  And I don't blame the teacher for giving me a zero, I just would have liked to know it was blank.  I just found out today... a week after I turned it in.  That SO sucks.  I'm an idiot.

In other news, Carl wants to have lunch with our pastor tomorrow.  He doesn't work and I'm feel so self-conscious like he's going to tell the pastor what a horrible wife I've been lately.  I know C would never say that, but I just feel like a shit.  And I guess perhaps I have been a horrible wife lately and that's why I think he wants to tell the pastor that. 

I'm gonna go have a pity party now and cry.  Then I'll be back with a better post tomorrow.

No Graduation In May

Well kids, after finding out more information about what I would be required to do in order to graduate in May, I have decided to put off my graduation until December.  Basically I would have to work a full time position (unpaid), attend class for 3 hours on Mondays, AND have a research paper due within a 12 week timespan.  We are only given the 12 weeks to work 116 hours which comes out to about 36 or 37 hours a week.  That really leaves me no time for family events or even the kids' activities.  I decided to take the summer off, maybe take a summer class or two to add to a sociology minor and just graduate in December.  If I wait until fall, I have 3 extra weeks to do the 116 hours.  It seems so obviously simple, but I feel so let down.  I keep telling myself I will still graduate in 2008, just a few months later than I expected. 

I'm sure Carl is worried about it.  Financially I was prepared to get this all done this summer.  I'm not sure how I will swing it financially through December.  I will probably have to borrow money from Aubrey again.  I hate doing that, but I don't see any other way unless I work all summer and the whole point is for me to have time with the kids and relax a little before I sink into heavy duty final finish stuff.  I guess I just need to take that leap and hope that I'm doing the right thing.  I need to trust that things will work.

So, that's where I am right now.  I've told the school that's what I'm doing, now I just have to withdraw from May graduation and come to terms with my choice.

Something fun for a change...

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits:
To Have And Not To Hold - Madonna

Waking Up:
Nothing Else Matters - Aqualung

First Day At School:
I'm Feeling You - Santanna

Falling in Love:
Ventura Highway - America

Fight Song:
Feel It - Black Eyed Peas

Breaking Up:
Rise Up - Indigo Girls

Prom:
I Don't Care - Ricky Martin (yeah that's right Ricky Martin so shut up)

Life:
The Power of Good Bye - Madonna

Mental Breakdown:
High - James Blunt

Driving:
In Pieces - Backstreet Boys (ok .. you can laugh at that one)

Flashback:
Never Alone - Barlow Girl

Wedding:
My Humps - Black Eyed Peas (omg that's too funny)

Birth of Child:
Blackbird - The Beatles

Final Battle:
Symphone No. 3 in E flat Major (hahhahah) That was a sample on my iphone LOL

Funeral Song:
Are You Happy Now - Michele Branch (OMG)

End Credit:
The Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani

Souper Bowl Sunday

This weekend, coinciding with the football game, is a national drive for hunger called Souper Bowl Sunday.  The youth at church stand around with big soup pots after church and collect money for hunger.  Last year from our parish alone they collected $2,000!  I think that's awesome.  They also collect non-perishable food for the local food bank.  The thing I most like about this drive is that everything stays local.  All the money and food collected today will directly impact Denton and stays right here in our own community.

As a future social worker, I believe that you have to start the change at "home" so that it spreads outwardly.  I've been having a bit of an inner struggle about what to do in grad school.  Right now with my pending BA, I will have a generalist practice.  But upon entering grad school, I will be faced with a choice of choosing a micro track (dealing with individuals) or going into macro work (basically adminnistration).  The entire time I've thought about social work, my goal was to be a counselor.  The further I've gotten into my BA, the more I see the importance of the macro side ... working with the community to spread awareness and promoting change.  I may be putting off the master's program for a while until I see how things go on the generalist level.

I also recently found out that TWU has a master's program in music therapy.  I want to work with older adults and I'm thinking that music therapy would be a really cool way to do that.  I will have to check into it some more... I feel so much at odds with a lot of things right now I think I just need to slow down and take things in smaller pieces.

Speaking of smaller pieces, I'm trying to delegate those group projects and papers that I have to work on.  I've done my portion of the first assignment for the project.  I just hope everyone else is on track and is working on it.  Knowing me, if they're not doing their part, I will end up doing the entire thing.  Blarg.

Well, I hope everyone enjoys the game tonight or whatever else you have planned.  If you think about it, please donate a non-perishable food item to your local food bank.  People are hungry year round, not just at Thanksgiving and Christmas!

And the beat goes on....

Mom is back home and feeling fine.  She has to take a once a day medication to maintain her heart rate.  Apparently she's had a rapid heartbeat since my oldest sister was born (nearly 60 years ago)!!  Mom is supposed to see the cardiologist next week.  She said to me last night "Do you think I really need to go and see him??"  uhhhhh Yeah mom... you really need to go see him.  I think she's nervous about seeing him because he's foreign, speaks with a thick accent, and isn't white.  My mom grew up in a very small and isolated place in Upper Michigan.  It's no excuse but it's why she is the way she is.  I told her the only way to get over that fear is to face it.  So I'll go with her to the cardiologist and see how it is and if she is really uncomfortable with him we'll find her someone else to see.  My main concern is that she might not understand his instruction because of his accent.

Other than the whole mom incident everything else is ok.  My arm is healing from my fall and itches like crazy.  Because it was a sliding scratch, I have a zillion small scabs along that part of my arm with bruising underneath.  The scabs catch on everything and hurt like hell as well as if anything, even my sleeve, touches it.  I thought 40 would be the best ... I just feel like an old woman.  LOL

Well, I have a ton of things to get done this morning and someone is coming over to fix the tile and grout on our shower so I need to get get my coffee and get cleaned up before she gets here.  Have a great day.