I wouldn't say that I'm a religious person. I'm spiritual. When I pray I'm not afraid to ask for things, but I'm afraid of how they will be given to me!! LOL As a lot of you know, I'm the quest to shed some pounds, so I have been praying about it ... asking for motivation and strength as well as will power. Well, yesterday I got all the motivation I need.
The doctor called me with the results of all my blood tests. My pap smear was clear, no STDs, I'm not pregnant, excellent cholesterol levels, no problems with my thyroid, and my blood pressure was great. HOWEVER, enzymes in my blood indicate that I have 17% swelling of my heart. :/ This is not life threatening now, thank goodness, but it does mean that I have to buckle down and start making some changes.
Since I started the medication, I have been pretty jittery. I don't like that feeling. But today I woke up after finally sleeping all night. I was up at 4:00 am. I got up, took my pill, and went back to bed for an hour. I got up at 5:00 with Carl and we goofed on the computer. When the baby woke up, I changed her and dressed her. She had breakfast and then we had a 30 minute walk. It was really great. The sky is overcast and there's a cool breeze. It was still humid, but that breeze felt so good hitting my sweaty face.
So, the lesson kids is to be careful how you ask for things to happen to you. I guess it's almost the same as being careful what you wish for because you might get it. I think that we can have anything we truly desire, but me... I need the courage to accept how it's going to happen to me. I've learned that the things I want sometimes come at a cost I hadn't considered.
I'm not thankful for the swollen heart, but honestly... I wonder if my health weren't threatened... would I have been as motivated to make the changes? Hmmm. I'll have to think on that a while.
Both my parents died at age 60. Since I am 52, that means I have about 8 years left? I plan to beat those odds.
Posted by: boxx | August 16, 2008 at 10:25 AM
See, the problem is, now I feel morally obliged to 'do it' too! Meh. My motivation is a) I dont think I look very attractive and b) Im job hunting and I cant go for interviews if I cant squeeze my bit fat butt into any of my suits. I'll stick at it (cos you are) but I reserve the right to bitch and moan about it every SINGLE day, m'kay?! s x
Posted by: stepfordtart | August 16, 2008 at 12:45 PM